Undeleted my blog to you

A few weeks ago, I deleted the blog because I was so emotionally distressed and I thought it would be better if I couldn't write to you everyday. I've thought about it quite a bit, and decided to "undelete" it. I just miss you so much and so many parts of me want you to know that. I don't know why this is so hard. I wish in lots of ways our relationship would have gone differently. I wish we had gotten married ;-( and that we faced our problems and were committed to finding a solution together. So so so so sad.