Love you miss you

Hug you hold you.

Wanted to make you an ice cream cone with this

So many things I want to share with you

I want you to be there for everything! I've found lots of things to do to keep myself busy. I'm always alone which just completely and totally is one of the worst feelings ever. It makes me miss you even more. I know I should try not to put myself through this, but it's so hard sometimes! And so sad.

Undeleted my blog to you

A few weeks ago, I deleted the blog because I was so emotionally distressed and I thought it would be better if I couldn't write to you everyday. I've thought about it quite a bit, and decided to "undelete" it. I just miss you so much and so many parts of me want you to know that. I don't know why this is so hard. I wish in lots of ways our relationship would have gone differently. I wish we had gotten married ;-( and that we faced our problems and were committed to finding a solution together. So so so so sad.