I'm trying to...Keep this in mind

Meet you on a beach in Hawaii.... In a white dress.

Miss you

There is a variety of things that makes this so difficult. You were my family. I wanted you to be my family. I had finally learned I needed to find someone who would make me a wife who was proud of her husband for being a wonderful man. And you were that to me. It's not easy to try not to miss you because you are a good person. You are genuine, kind, sweet, loving, and you are a man of utmost integrity. And a man that I love dearly.
Sometimes I think Don might come by and say "What are you thinking? That girl has gone above and beyond for you!". I don't know why you don't understand the position you put other people in. I can't even count the # of times I've seen Don at your house, but I can count on one hand the number of times I've seen you at his house. And he only lives a car length away. Don't you ever realize that people want reciprocation in a relationship whether it's merely a friendship or a serious relationship. I wanted you to be with me in some of my life...... I was there for yours. Even though I am mad, it's hard I be mad at you for something you don't understand or comprehend. I think one day you will understand it, but only when "you are in my shoes", and one day you will be.

I would have dropped everything for you. I would have quit my own dreams for you. We should have complimented each other not killed each other. I wanted and still want a family with you. I would love nothing more than to be husband and wife with one already beautiful child and more to come. Your things are more important to you. I always think of you as going to the ends of the earth for me, but you do that for your stuff....the stuff that will never love you back.

I Look for you everyday.... You aren't in here.

Empty bar stool beside me at The Cherry Creek Grill

It was a beautiful day in Denver today. I just finished a 5 day and I was so hungry. I can't remember the last time I had more than one meal a day. I just don't have an appetite. I barely even have time to eat when I'm at work anyway. I finished my trip today at noon, so I decided to go to the Cherry Creek Grill. I got a seat at the far end of the bar.... I had a good view of the table we sat at the last time we ate there. It was kind of upsetting because I wished you were there. Last time we ate there, we took a cab, both had a few drinks and had one of the best nights ever.... Just like all the nights I've ever spent with you on an overnight. Remember you had the French dip? And you loved it! Today, I didn't get my usual Macho salad. I got the vegetable plate instead. I ate half of it and took the rest home. The restaurant is so beautiful. It was peaceful and the music was nice. It wasn't too busy either. There were lots of open seats at the bar. I just wish the one next to me wasn't empty.

Wondering where you are....

I am stuck in Pueblo waiting for the mechanics to replace the tires on our right main gear....
I had to go into my bag so I could get the nail polish.... So I could paint my nails while we are waiting....you are around every corner and in every thought and every prayer....

What does this remind you of??

Aiden running around with his mouth wide open, waving his hand, screaming "HOT HOT"!
:-)))

Spicy green chile

I'm stuck in Pueblo trying to get a mechanic who can put some nitrogen in a tire for us. I was really hungry, so I went in and got the Huevos Rancheros at the restaurant. Woah that green chile is SPICY! Delicious but my mouth is on fire. I don't think they were as good as the breakfast you had at the Renaissance on the day after my birthday! Remember those? I still have the picture on my phone ;-) I certainly think we could have made an excellent rendition of these though. Tortilla with hash browns, an egg over medium, then salsa and cheese! Miss our cooking ;(

Today is my first flight down to Albuquerque! I'm a little nervous. I hate going into big airports that I don't know. The taxiing worries me because I'm not sure where to go and I don't know where we park. I sure wish I was going in with you in the 737 even if I was just an FA. I miss those days ;( I still dream I'll fly with you again one day.... Dream to fly the rest of my life with you.

I'm sure you are home. I wish I was sitting "shot gun" where ever you are ;(