I LOVE YOU BABE!!!

Hope you have fun reading this!!! Probably have to click "older posts" at the bottom until you get to the first post which I did at the end up April! Might be a little cheesy!! But at least you'll know what I was really thinking the whole time!!!

My heart smiles for you again

:-)

Just thinking

I am going to bring you both Birthday cakes and presents.  There are so many things I want to make.  I haven't cooked a single thing in 5 months.  I am afraid I might have forgotten how to cook.  Remember all the cooking we used to do?  That was so fun.  Why do I feel like you died?  Ugh it sucks!

Getting the ring re-sized

As much as I wanted you to have it, I'll always have you with me now....plus its beautful.

Last night was tough

I had to commute home on SWA because DAL was full.  I got to the gate and although I recognized the CA, I didn't KNOW him..... BUT HE KNEW YOU!  And of course asked about you.  Its so hard to answer all the questions people ask me.  It ruined my whole day.  I just wanted to sit there and cry my eyes out.  But I didn't.  I responded with what I believe to be the truth...." Ernie is a wonderful man, has a fantastic son, and a great x-wife".  Tried to lighten the mood a bit.  It still broke my heart. 

So sad today

Just so many things that I can't even tell you....... I wonder when I will get off the plane and not look for you. I always thing... "maybe today he'll be here".

I don't think you'll ever know how much I love you! Maybe one day you will.....
Sometimes I wish I made u take me to the Breakers in Palm
Beach..... You had already given me your debit card number to pay and everything ;-( ugh!

Miss you

This is AMAZZZZZIIIINNNNGGG!!!

You both will love it!

My favorite pizza

Always wished I would be here with you! I love you so much! I wish I didn't think about you every second ;-( ugh

Always

I ALWAYS TELL YOU EVERYTHING!!! It just sucks not having you to tell :-( so saddddd!!!!

Damn IT!!!!

I LOVED YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! WTH!! Why didn't you love me back? I would have done anything for you!

PBI

What would I give to go back to Palm beach and start over????
:-(((
I remember it like it was only yesterday. I wish it really only had been yesterday. Hind sight is always 20/20. I wish I knew then what I know now!

Dreams

I wonder when you won't be in my dreams anymore..... But I kind of hope you don't ever leave....I love getting to see you.

You too

Have more personality in your pinky finger than anyone I've ever met! I love you!

Love you miss you

Hug you hold you.

Wanted to make you an ice cream cone with this

So many things I want to share with you

I want you to be there for everything! I've found lots of things to do to keep myself busy. I'm always alone which just completely and totally is one of the worst feelings ever. It makes me miss you even more. I know I should try not to put myself through this, but it's so hard sometimes! And so sad.

Undeleted my blog to you

A few weeks ago, I deleted the blog because I was so emotionally distressed and I thought it would be better if I couldn't write to you everyday. I've thought about it quite a bit, and decided to "undelete" it. I just miss you so much and so many parts of me want you to know that. I don't know why this is so hard. I wish in lots of ways our relationship would have gone differently. I wish we had gotten married ;-( and that we faced our problems and were committed to finding a solution together. So so so so sad.

Love my ring